
Recently one of the trainers where I work said, "soon you'll have to stop weighing yourself." A couple weeks later off a 7 day binge, I am reminded that I will ALWAYS have to weigh myself. I will always fight the scale. You see for me this is not a "journey." This is a fight. I don't want smoothies, I want mimosas. I don't want a little treat, I want vegas! My body doesn't stop gaining at a certain weight. If I don't FIGHT till the day I die, I will be 300 lbs, easy. And it doesn't matter that I have figured out what works best for me, what makes me happy. I will still slip and cry and feel guilty and trapped. Maintenance is just as hard as losing. I will always have HUGE calves and feel like the fat girl even when I'm fit. I will always have to think about my weight. Always. I will always have to fight.