The title says it all:  Dieting makes me fat!  Sounds impossible, but it's true.  I eat a low amount of calories, I exercise, I do everything "right" and I do SO well....for a while.  Then my body and brain freak out and I eat everything in sight.  I'm not talking about a couple cookies and a scoop of ice cream.  I'm talking about the whole package of cookies and the whole pint (or more) of ice cream.  And other stuff too.  Let's not candy coat it.  I undo all of my hard work and then some with binge eating and I gain weight.  And not just a little, because one day turns into a week and then two and so on and so forth before I come to my senses and feel utterly disgusted with myself.  It's a vicious cycle that can only be stopped by eating a healthy amount of food for my body.  I cannot eat like a bird.  Some people can drastically cut calories and have the discipline not to go overboard but I can't.  I must EAT!  No tiny salads with a rice cake for dessert for me.  A typical day looks like this:

Breakfast - coffee with 1/2ish cup skim milk, egg sandwich (sandwich thin with 2 eggs and a slice of cheese), cottage cheese and blueberries
Lunch - huuuuuuuge spinach salad with every veggie known to man and protein (tuna, salmon or chicken), beans, cheese and fat free dressing.  Also greek yogurt with half a banana and cheerios
Snack - apple or some other fruit.  Or sometimes more greek yogurt instead.
Dinner - it varies, but usually a large portion of protein, starch and veggies.  I don't skip the bread or potatoes or any of that nonsense.  I just try to be reasonable and not go overboard.
Snack (if I'm hungry before bed) - greek yogurt (I'm addicted)

I eat healthy for the most part, but it's a lot of food for a "diet" and I don't skimp on portions anymore or turn down particularly scrumptious treats.  If I'm truly hungry, I eat.  It took me a long long time to learn what works for me and what keeps me SANE.  I eat to satisfaction and only when hungry, but I EAT.  It makes me sad to see the ladies (or gents) who eat a tiny bowl of salad and a grapefruit and call it a meal.  It's just not sustainable in the long run.

Weight comes off more slowly when I eat in a way that keeps me physically and mentally satisfied, but it does come off and I don't go off the rails with binge eating.  It's a win win.  I'm already anticipating that I may not win my second dietbet because of the slow loss, but I really want to be here because the game keeps me accountable.  I'm not perfect, and even when I'm eating well I still have plenty of moments where I want to overeat.  I know I won't do that if I'm in a game because I'm paying to be here and to lose weight.  Even if I lose the bet, I WIN, because I'm losing pounds and sticking to my goals. 

In other news:  my gympact is going well!  I went from not exercising at all the first few days of the bet to exercising every day.  Not losing money is a big motivator for me!  And, I joined a gym right by my work so I can go at lunchtime.  The gym is brand new and doesn't open until Feb 1, but I am very excited!