It's gonna be a close one!

Just a few days left! I was worried I wasn’t going to make it with this one but I think I’m ok. How’s everyone doing?

I did have a nice non-scale victory today. It's the 50th day in a row of logging my meals. That's important to me because it's when I am most accountable and do the best in my weight loss.

Haven't found any non-scale victories in your journey yet? Here's a nice list to look at, and hopefully you'll find something that resonates with you!

I picked the worst time to have my first stall of this most recent weight loss effort.

I know they are going to happen, because I've certainly been through them before. I know there will be frustrations that on certain days make it seem like it's frivolous to keep on trying. And I know that each stall ends, and you start losing again.

But it doesn't make it any easier to endure each time a new stall hits.

I've resigned myself to understanding that I'm not going to hit the goal next week. I have a lot of tricks in my bag to try to make that happen and I'm going to employ them to see how close I can get. But I already have a plan on how to react if I don't reach the goal, and that will be to celebrate the loss I did achieve in this game. It's a significant amount! It's just not what I need to meet this goal.

And I will keep on plodding along. I'm in month two of a six-month transformer, so I still have goals, and I still have a reason to keep trying. But even if there wasn't a Transformer, I still have goals, and I want to meet them at least one time in my life.

Don't give up, friends - I'm not giving up either!

Today has been a really awful day. I mean REALLY awful!

I'm so motivated to lose weight right now, but my body seems to be fighting me. I thought I was getting to the point where I could start on some serious walking leading to getting back on my bicycle sometime this spring. But the knee I had replaced last June has "exploded" in pain and pressure on each of the last two days, to the point where I can barely walk. I've had to go back to using a cane for stability this evening, and getting in and out of a car is a painful ordeal. Orthopedist appt. made for this Friday.

On top of that, the heart issue I thought I was on top of kicked back in today, perhaps from all the pain. I'm supposed to be having a cardiologist call to make an appointment but it hasn't happened yet, so I will chase that down tomorrow.

I'm so frustrated!

But...there is good news. Before the weight loss began in January, this would have been an evening where I would have tried to drown my frustration in unhealthy foods, looking for soul-less flavor to try to cheer me up.

But not today. I just ate my last snack of the day, and I'm still 300 calories under my goal! I needed this victory, but I was so busy feeling sorry for myself that I didn't see it until just a few minutes ago.

Healthy habits can move us forward, and they can sustain us when we fall backwards. I want comfort, but not in food that will do me no good.

Thanks for letting me vent. Hopefully tomorrow goes better than today, but if it doesn't, I still won't turn to food to comfort my pain. I'm too good for that!